How to accept yourself — just as you are.
These are the stories I’ve carried around for years — most of them since I was a teenager. These are the stories from others that I allowed to steal my sunlight and sparkle.
I’ve spent decades second-guessing my natural enthusiasm for life and the way it manifests because it was too much for someone else. I made my world smaller and smaller to avoid being scrutinized and judged negatively for simply being me.
And then I met my Human Design. That’s when I fell in love. With me.
I have the conscious Channel of Logic, so yes, I am always thinking, and thinking is good. I have a defined Spleen, so I’m also super intuitive. I naturally see patterns and pathways where others see chaos and confusion, which is why I’m very good at strategy and positioning. This is how I create enormous value for my clients.
I am a Manifesting Generator with the unconscious Gate of enthusiasm and skills and the conscious Channels of exploration and power, so yes, I am animated by curiosity and throw myself into new experiences and new discoveries and the cultivation of new talents, whether it’s photography or fashion design or the ukulele or the harmonium or flamenco dancing or gardening, or, or, or. If it looks like I don’t stick with anything, then you don’t really “see” me, because I do stick with things when they continue to light me up, like my high-stakes, hard-to-tell storytelling business I’ve been doing for ten years (humanifesto studios), or Human Design, which I’ve been immersed in learning and living since discovering it 18 months ago.
And, yes, I do talk fast. I have not one, but two Channels of Charisma connecting the powerful energy of the Sacral directly to the Throat where thoughts and actions are expressed — in the now. I am highly energized when expressing myself creatively and intellectually.
I AM emotionally sensitive. I have an undefined Solar Plexus, which means I feel what everyone else feels (this is commonly called an Empath), and I am pre-conditioned to magnify it and embody it.
I didn’t “belong” at Stanford. But my Channel of Transformation means I have the pressure and fuel to rise up and out of my blue-collar beginnings into a larger world of continuous opportunity and increased prosperity.
I do have to play The Game, but not the game of business politics. I have the conscious Gate of The Game Player which means I’m drawn to live a life of purpose and meaning, and I will take the necessary risks to explore every potential that speaks to me — wherever those risks take me.
Finally, I never felt the urge to marry or have children and was relieved, quite frankly, when menopause set in so I would no longer have to defend my chosen life path of individual curiosity. I have the conscious Channel of Awakening, which means I am here to contemplate and live my own truth in my own way and honor that through my personal code of conduct. I’m also a 4/1 profile which means I have a fixed path (not to be confused with destiny) way of showing up in the world. It means I’m not here to bend my path to someone else’s. Either they’ll have to bend their path to meet mine, or we’ll meet by walking the same path together, and I’m okay with that — whether or not it happens in this lifetime.
If you’ve struggled — or are struggling — to reconnect with the perfect, unconditioned version of your highest self, I can help. I’ve been there. I’m also uniquely designed to support you through your process of inner inquiry, self-empowerment, and personal transformation.
Stop living in the shadows — the world needs you to embrace and embody your gifts.
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